Haze.....

Well,today was rather fun,considering that the physics test can be aced if i didn't make all those careless mistakes -_-,that sure boosted my confidence a little,even if i know that the standard of it isn't half of the O levels...i think....lol,okay,well,anyway,i'll skip a little and go straight to the part where everyone decided to go to Natalie's house,sooo,everyone went to Natalie's house and then,well,they explored it,went around,commented,and after awhile,they took out the mahjong table and started to play,i played 1 round,haha,me and jh were waiting on each other's tiles,so we were stuck,during the round i played,Eileen won,since i only played 1 round,i didn't know the rest,but i think Thai Siong won a few rounds too,Junhui And Yong Chuan Too,i think,But,while they were playing mahjong,sean suggested that we play Carrom,and it was Fun-ny,haha,just a little shortform for something Fun and Funny(Lame),Anyways,they were shooting the main disc everywhere,it even hit people,haha,well,i don't feel like describing the events,well,i think those who were there and heard those who were playing Carrom would get a little of the picture....

Well,my body is weakened these few days,by the stupid haze,or by some other unknown cause,but all i know is that if this goes on,i wonder how long i can hold,lol...i mean,i get choked when i breathe in the joss paper smoke,that doesn't normally happen,if i can get my breath stuck by only this,something is very wrong....Haa....Anyways,gonna stop here,rather late...

I see......I finally understand,nothing can change it,with my way of thinking....i'm just being selfish,aren't I....?I mean,how can you open a door when the doorknob is on the other side?No matter how i pray that things might just change even a little....it won't work...will it?Haha...how foolish i was....This wasn't the life that i can live...i have never truly treasured anything....anyone....in the end,i'm just driving myself in circles and going back to the path of loneliness.....even so....i still wonder if i should give up hope....or continue fighting?