25/07/09

Well,today's a saturday,well,nothing much happened,except that todya is one of the VERY rare days that i take afternoon naps,well,only for an hour,tho,but whenever i wake up after a afternoon nap,i become very dizzy,like i just completed some training or finish studying,those kinda dizzy feeling,wth,lol,wierd,but normally,during that period,i become alot stronger and more relaxed,meaning i can work better,but it's very tiring when i work during that time,hmmm,anyways,tonight is another family gathering,hope something interesting happens.....

22/07/09

Well,today was listening comprehension,and i must say,i did rather badly,i changed many answers that were originall correct,darn,must've been too nervous,ah well,what's done is done,hmmm,these few days,daniel gan keeps taking my stuff,and it's getting rather irritating,gotta be more alert now,zzz,nothing much happening,either that,or i have no idea what happened,i can slowly feel myself distancing for an unknown reason,from everything,for some reason,i just want to stay alone,but the same time,i don't want to,like 2 different people inside me....haha,sounds ridiculous,but.....i just get a bad feeling,i mean,how's staying alone something positive?Even if i follow the rest of them for lunch,i just don't talk much,unless i have to,like persuading or something....

I suppose that may be the pressure of the "O" levels coming,cuz tomorrow's the preliminaries for the chemistry and physics practical exams,i rarely get really nervous,in fact,i rarely display emotions now these few days,don't know what's happening,theres no adventure now,no feeling of mystery whenever i go somewhere,like i can expect something exciting to happen,am i finally growing up from a kid?Or is it something totally different.....like.....emo-ing?

Well,emo-ing is what people call it,but actually,while this may be true,that i think that emoing,or the other more befitting name,"Reflection",is something that can heal mental wounds,which is how i can manage things so far,i'm like walking down a road of light and darkness,with no end in sight,wondering why this happened.....ah well,if i wanna continue,this could take forever,so,guess i'll stop here,hope something or some event happens soon!

A Wednesday

well,these few days is rather uncomfortable,i feel very edgy and just feel like sleeping the whole day,i took awhile to find out what it was,i do't know,but my guess is that all the anger i stored since the past is starting to cross the limit,or maybe it's just the flu,didn't follow the others out very often now,for some reason,i just keep preferring to stay alone,this is seriously a change that i'm aware of but unable to act against,hmmmm,wonder what triggered this stuff.Maybe it's just me acting emo,haha,maybe not,my bro is really starting to annoy me,wish i could knock him to his sense and my mom is....well,i shouldn't say it,but her arrogance is killing me,even if it's for my own good.

Well,these things aside,these few days are just plain busy,not much spare time to do other stuff,DnT and tests and stuffrather stressful i would say,also,gotten my new specs,not bad,looks nice,but i can't get used to the degrees....ah well,suppose i'll stop here,then...rather tired

11/07/09

Well,i'm no longer bothered to type how many "long time"s i have to type for this,don't update the blog much now(Maybe that was an understatement).Well,yesterday was Eileen's birthday(Happy Birthday!!),and,when we went to class,we sang a birthday song and she recieved a small cake,which she made everyone eat,lol(okay...not everyone),and after that,i didn't know about the shopping stuff,had to go home for tuition,then...the next day,it was another celebration,well,it was very fun and interesting,and it was memorable,at first,it was physics lesson,then,after that,me,sean,bao hui and yong chuan(he came later) went to thai siong's house,sean and bao hui played dota and sean got ownt,me and ts played the PS2,Dynasty warriors 6,though graphics were downgraded,it was not bad,then played and was late for the meeting,orginally 11am at kovan,but oh well,lol,well,over there,we went to pasir ris and went to white sands first to eat lunch,i saw someone in a superman suit giving advertisement things,well,that's not so bad,but the best thing is that inside,i saw a shop named Superdog,i was like "err.....",lol,anyway,after that,we went to pasir ris park(i think),we had to go through the mangrove forest and stuff,anyway,after reaching there,they lay out the mat and played captain's ball and stuff,flying kites among other things,there was also a small arguement,and i totally didn't know what happened,lol,so i won't talk about that,next,we went back to kovan again,then over there,we played pool and a little of arcade,a little coincidentally,that place was named "Superbowl",haha,lol,looks like superman has many many fans.

After that,it was BBQ time,well,over there,it was more playing,and bbqing,there was alot of food and also,it rained,lol,so everyone gathered at the stage to eat,there was also lightsticks and stuff,well,after that i was home time.......

.....well,these few days i feel rather empty,like something is missing,which is really really wierd,considering.....well...i don't know,something like being clear or something,i just don't understand any of it that's happening.....it may seem emo....but what the heck,i don't even know why it's like that......