22/07/09

Well,today was listening comprehension,and i must say,i did rather badly,i changed many answers that were originall correct,darn,must've been too nervous,ah well,what's done is done,hmmm,these few days,daniel gan keeps taking my stuff,and it's getting rather irritating,gotta be more alert now,zzz,nothing much happening,either that,or i have no idea what happened,i can slowly feel myself distancing for an unknown reason,from everything,for some reason,i just want to stay alone,but the same time,i don't want to,like 2 different people inside me....haha,sounds ridiculous,but.....i just get a bad feeling,i mean,how's staying alone something positive?Even if i follow the rest of them for lunch,i just don't talk much,unless i have to,like persuading or something....

I suppose that may be the pressure of the "O" levels coming,cuz tomorrow's the preliminaries for the chemistry and physics practical exams,i rarely get really nervous,in fact,i rarely display emotions now these few days,don't know what's happening,theres no adventure now,no feeling of mystery whenever i go somewhere,like i can expect something exciting to happen,am i finally growing up from a kid?Or is it something totally different.....like.....emo-ing?

Well,emo-ing is what people call it,but actually,while this may be true,that i think that emoing,or the other more befitting name,"Reflection",is something that can heal mental wounds,which is how i can manage things so far,i'm like walking down a road of light and darkness,with no end in sight,wondering why this happened.....ah well,if i wanna continue,this could take forever,so,guess i'll stop here,hope something or some event happens soon!